i drive myself crazy, always thinking, and well lately
i can’t seem find a life raft / to help save me /
i sit in safety / in the area that helped raise me
supposed to be here, so I can chase dreams ///
Instead, I go to work cause it pays me
at my desk restless / watching time wasting /
As every second pass / I lose second chance
so I bought myself a watch with no second hands –>
sit in solitude with critical thoughts /
It’s miserable / to realize the kid in you’s lost –>
the little day to day shit that pisses you off –>
taken / over your body like a physical force ///
I tried meditation / but the silenced sirened
suicidal thoughts and now my head is racin –>
I clean once a week but now and then forget the basement –>
so i’m downstairs trapped with the mess I’m makin
gaspin for respiration / panic in isolation
hyperventilating fighting for each breath I take in
human nature is amazing faced with expiration
my chest is breaking sole searching for explanations
‘Brian’ - hold up / my girl just showed up /
noticed the the mess around me said / ‘lets throw away this old stuff’
I said ‘go nuts’ / and together we packed up trash bags and tossed’em for long months
Years later, my mind’s free and sober
far from Froze up, everything’s kosher
attitude laissez faire, like, like ‘so what?’
All day peaceful and that’s that… i’m grown up

P E A C E of Mind
peace of mind’s all i want to find when i start writing
P E A C E of Mind
peace of mind’s all i want to find so i stop hiding

I’m feeling tense, I wanna let my mind roam around
I’ve been home a while, feeling like an only child
My family’s ten minutes away but I ain’t goin’ out
I’ve been gettin’ way too blunted but yo I’m older now
Gotta control myself, save up every cent to
Ensure I’m not a rent check away from a homeless shelter
My spending habits are worse than the music of Lenny Kravitz
I’m also selfless, down to my last penny, you can have it
I could use some magic ‘cause on the news it’s tragic
My Dad just lost his job, and yo that dude’s a maverick
We’re in a time of crisis
Where poverty’s widespread like China’s rice is
I wanna roll a nice spliff
But that would go against everything that I’m planning for
I love my girl, last thing I wanna see is a slamming door
This life is serious, our choices affect lives
Although a sense of humor keeps you balanced at stress time
I read books to gain perspective and stay effective
You learn just as much from life, ayo I stand corrected
We keep this band protected ‘cause if it gets infected
That prevents us from ever releasing another record
And that’d be wasting my father and mother’s efforts
Not to mention my older brother, answering all my questions
Death of a Salesman, Willy Loman’s left the building
Sent into a tailspin, but he ain’t forget his children
That’s my final motto
For those who feel like their mind’s as hollow as a wino’s bottle
Here’s a line to follow
Will power and self-control will help your soul
And regain that peace of mind that you thought you’d lost years ago